Robert Williams: my laughter of joy

He has been put down
All his family now just frown

All my life
He'd know how to make a joke about a knife.

U would never think
That he'd look at that knife and blink

My childhood of joy
Was all from him from when he was a boy

He could turn a frown upside down
He was the comedian with the crown

He had a beautiful smile
But we had no idea of his secret file

As he fell
My laughter went as well

He was my childhood chuckle
Until he was take by a belt buckle

Robert was a legend
Which I thank he gave a laugh to mend.

So it begins

so it begins
I throw my heart in bins

Im now all alone
No one to talk to on the phone

They will never understand
Where my heart will land

He is miles away
And my heart has to pay

I want the pain to stop
There's all these tears I have to mop

I'm so afraid
I knew my heart would get paid

All I want is to sleep
Instead of my darkness begin to leap

I want him to know
That's I can't stop feeling so low

Its time to sleep
But all my heart wants to do is weep

So it began
Out of the fire and into the pan.

Saying goodbye

Saying goodbye. It can be sad,happy,joyful,depressing or just confusing.This summer I will be saying goodbye to two of my closest friends,not forever, just until we meet again.My one good friend that makes me happy and smile (which isn't very often) is going to India for a year. Also my boyfriend will be going away to college (11 hours away). Iv known this would be happening and I feel like a sitting deer waiting to be shot knowing that something is going to come straight to my heart.while the leafs first fell and turned brown to the first frost, and the never ending winter...the days came closer that I knew that I will be faced with sadness.I cannot control who leaves and stays but I can control how I feel about it.I will feel a part of me was taken away until it comes back I'll be sitting here waiting for it to be in my arms again.My other pieces of myself that make me who I am.. Are now gone. And I will be here waiting.Everyday until I will never have to say goodbye again.

Helping Hands

You know what sucks?Try too hard to make everyone happy.You go out of your way for anyone even if you don't know the person,because all that matters is if they are happy.Even the days at your worst and no body realizes it you find yourself helping anyone out and doing the stuff that they don't want to do.Another thing i don't understand is the people that do this get treated the worst, like your just the back up plan.It hurts especially when you get nothing in return even a friendly "thank you".Iv learned to not expect anything,but what about respect?What happened of returning the favor when YOU are the one in need.But no,you'll have to fight your war by yourself,because your just the helper to push people along to live their lives better.One day i wish society will realize this and will recognize these people, or there can be more of us.Its like your watching a river and there are flowers and leaves falling into the water.They slowly move across the river and move on after every current and break in the water,but you are still there on the side,not moving on.

PROM EXPECTATIONS

Hello everyone!Its Monday and its the first day  from spring break.It didn't feel like much of a break because i was packed busy and was working the whole time.At least i got two days to sleep in...like a normal weekend.Anyway prom is this weekend and me and my boyfriend Joe are going, i already have my dress and he ordered his tux.Everyone keeps asking, how did Joe ask???Well that's the problem...he didn't, im not too upset about it but it was one of my main goals in High School is too get asked to a dance in special way,not just asking but actually taking the time to ask in a special way.Even if its just with flowers,i don't really care!Same things happened with homecoming this year and last year.My boyfriend is a senior which means i have to ask him for the next to years because he will be in college.Another tip to learn in High School is to not get your hopes up,I learned that the hard way.My friend got asked yesterday and he got her a bracelet that says PROM in engraved on silver.My other friend got asked with pizza,and she has one of those boyfriends that isn't very lovey dovey..Anyway i will update you guys later on me preparing for prom!

~Be with someone who talks about you like you put stars in the sky~



Your Truly,  Star

The truth of Mondays

I know today is Monday and we usually think of it as the worst day of the week.But it doesn't have to be that way,you can change your perspective on Mondays if you want!Every Monday there will be a new child entering this world,every Monday a teenager will make the decision to live a life that they were meant to live,every Monday someone will be reciting their vows to their one and only,every Monday you can make the decision to have a GOOD Monday.Not all Mondays are bad even if theirs bad weather,there will be a rainbow after the storm.Make your Monday good and have a great day!


Yours Truly, Star

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